Not in the Plan

Trigger topics: Plan B, Pregnancy, Language

“ I’ve never wanted kids. Never.”

My story is pretty straight forward

I was in my late 20s, single, and living in Missoula. I met a guy online who is a farmer in the Chinook area. We had chatted for a few months, and we decided it was time to meet in person. We slept together, and his condom broke. The very next morning, I drove into town and bought a box of Plan B and took it as prescribed. It didn’t pan out with the guy, so I didn’t really think anything of it until one day I started feeling poorly. It dragged on day after day for about a week. Nothing sounded good to eat, and what I could eat came right back up. Even beer didn’t sound good… Something didn’t feel right. I had a moment of sheer terror wash over me, “Oh fuck. Am I pregnant?” I bought a home pregnancy test and sure enough, it was positive. I made an appointment at the Missoula Planned Parenthood and my worst nightmare was confirmed—I was pregnant. I’ve never wanted kids. Never. I knew exactly what I was going to do. I had an abortion. I opted for the medication abortion, and I did it in the privacy of my own home. Once it was over, I felt so much relief. I knew that I had made the right decision for me, and there has never been a day that I’ve regretted my choice.